Love
Tosin very rarely did anything right, but one thing he wanted to do more than ever, was Love well. Growing up Catholic, he learned, there's no greater way to Love someone, than to give your life for their greater good. A rapper, by trade, he could spin a tale with words more whimsical than your favorite fiction series, more entrancing than your most beloved possession, and more challenging than your greatest fear. The way in which he interwove himself into every lyric, depicting such unapologetically hellacious or indescribably Heavenly scenes and events, would make you feel as though you'd been on the most intense rollercoaster of your life. He had an incredible gift. However, plagued by his past failed relationships with girls, his parents violent divorce, his never ending struggle to find loyal friends he can trust, he was losing hope that he had any reason to live. Radiance, like most girls her age, was finally ready to run free, do her own thing, pave her own path in life. A self taught vocalist and guitarist, she longed for the stage. At 19, she had achieved more awards for sports and academics than all of her siblings and friends. The middle child of 7, she was sometimes overshadowed by the eldest and youngest kids. Her older brother and sister did well to take care of her. She grew very close to them over the years. Radiance, however, always felt like the odd man out, for she had never had a boyfriend, much less any real romantic interest. She, in some ways, was like one of the guys. But her internal girl brain said,"why don't they think I'm pretty?" Plagued with loneliness, she was on a quest to find a guy worth her time and effort to Love and care. This is the story of how Tosin and Radiance came to find Love is Hoping in the most radically difficult situations, the most insane set of circumstances, and the most unforgiving portion of emotions arising to the surface. This is their story. From Love to loss to Love again. Tosin and his then fiancée, Shoshana, were traveling to their mutual friends marriage ceremony. They had been summoned to play music. They, however, we're slowly falling apart. Tosin, who was unsure of his future, had asked Shoshana to marry him just 7 months prior. But, because she was finishing college, they had no time to do the necessary wedding planning. As the looming uncertainty of their future weigh heavily on their chests, they arrived at the wedding, prepared with music. As the ceremony continued, Tosin knew that he was not yet ready for this type of commitment and decided to take his life seriously, to give Shoshana the much needed confidence and security she needed in their relationship. Later, at the wedding reception, Shoshana began drinking, and, as with alcohol, so left her inhibitions and out came her emotions. She had always longed to be with another friend of hers, Diego. And expressed this to him, and many others openly. When word of this got to Tosin, who had spent the last of his gas money repairing a broken headlamp from a minor accident they had gotten into on the drive to the wedding, he was both heartbroken and infuriated. At this, he found her, whispered in her ear, amidst the loud music, saying, "I'm going home tonight. You have 10 minutes before I go back to pack all our things so we can leave." And, he began to walk outside. Shoshana, embarrassed, came running after him, and the two of them found their way to the car. As Tosin started the engine, he had one chance to stay collected. But in a fit of rage, he berated Shoshana with insults and accusations. Raising his voice at her, which he had never done before, he did not relent, even with Shoshana in tears and sobbing morosely, as if, after his polemic, she was sure to die. The argument never ceased. Amidst the chaos, the two of them managed to pack all their things, even helping one another remember where they had laid certain items, so as not to forget them. Neither could see, in their darkest hour, they still chose to work together. This, later, became a sign to Tosin. Packing the car, mid argument, Tosin stopped and asked,"Are you forgetting anything else? Because I'm not coming back." Shoshana emphatically said,"No, and if I am, it clearly doesn't matter enough to you to go find out." And with that, they were off. They were stopped, however, by the parents of the groom, who's house they had taken up residence. The husband said,"If God desires it, all shall mend itself. If not, expect miracles to come forth from this situation." Tosin had heard this a day before, from the priest who heard his confession. He thanked the man, and drove off into the night. It was around midnight. Shoshana, still crying gently, didn't dare look at Tosin. He didn't acknowledge her existence. While driving, Tosin came upon what appeared to be construction work. As he got closer, he saw devastation. A truck had recently been in a head on collision with something. Tosin pulled the car over to investigate. Several cars behind him did the same. He came upon the driver of the truck, whose airbag had deployed, saving his life, and whose passenger was laughing with a small laceration to his forehead. Tosin and another patron helped both men to a different vehicle for assessment. Tosin came back to the truck, searching for evidence of what the trucker had run into, and, following the skid marks, found another car, nose first in the ditch, just across the street. He rushed to the driver side. The driver, a woman, her head was wedged within a hole in the windshield. She was lifeless. Tosin came around to the other side. The passenger was wearing her seatbelt, and non-responsive. He called out to her, and she began to scream. Several people came to help Tosin pull the door off its hinges, for it was impaired beyond opening by normal means. Once open, the seatbelt was cut, and the young woman was rushed to the hospital via EMT. Shoshana was distraught by the entire situation. She had called paramedics and police. Waiting for what seemed like forever, the officers began directing traffic away from the scene, and toward another high way. Shoshana, barely able to speak, still in shock from the events of the day, fell asleep. Tosin placed his right hand on her left knee, and begged God for a miracle. He heard a voice,"Are you ready to learn to Love?" "Yes, Lord." "You must let her go. The one who is to be your future wife is soon coming." Tosin began to weep. "But I've given so much. Why can't I just stay with her?" "She does not desire to marry you. She is unsure of her own life at this point. Set her free and be set free." And Tosin drove home.
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